about: how it all happened

I’m Welsh by birth though I moved to London in my early teens to study stagecraft at the Italia Conti School. Through the school agency I began working professionally, juggling academic lessons, dance classes, rehearsals and filming. After leaving the school I continued for a while as a dancer and actor, but quite early on began to establish myself as a choreographer. Later came opportunities to direct and for a few years I also stage designed, occasionally practising the three disciplines simultaneously. Performance skills gained early on in puppetry, masks and all forms of stage trickery proved useful tools for me to create productions strong on visual impact. I worked in the UK, across Europe and in the USA. But by the time I could confidently look at my diary at any time and see that there was plenty of work booked ahead, I’d also become uneasy about the peripatetic life that went with the job. I was weary too of the collaborative demands of theatre, which is essentially a team game. After twenty-three years of professional work on the stage I simply stopped accepting offers. I was thirty-seven.

Me aged nineteen, about to appear as Jim Hawkins opposite the Long John Silver of Michael David (centre) in a 1970 production of Treasure Island directed by Roger Nott. (right)

I came very late to painting. Past forty. But I wouldn’t have come to it at all were it not for the fact that I met Peter Wakelin who took an interest in my drawing and encouraged me to paint. (Significantly we’d met at an art fair that I’d been taken to by an old school friend, Robin Hawkins.) In time Peter and I became partners. He steadily inched things forward and made over a box-room in his Cardiff house to serve as a small studio for me. However he didn’t stop at that. One day he ‘cold-called’ at The Kilvert Gallery in Clyro, persuading the owner Lizzie Organ to look at my portfolio while I stood by, my face flaming with embarrassment. Lizzie was unexpectedly forgiving and enthusiastic and after a short spell where my work had a presence in mixed shows at her gallery, she offered me my first one-man exhibition, a giant leap of faith on her part. The work was well received and the exhibition sold extremely well. I’d hit the ground running.

In my early years of painting I had virtually no confidence in myself, expecting at all times to be exposed as a fraud. Nevertheless supported by Peter… the ‘engine’ driving me forward… I kept my head down and taught myself how to handle pigment and brushes. His belief had to make up for my own insecurities and deficiencies. He never stopped saying “You are a painter”. I’m not sure that I felt like one, but his belief kept me afloat. As in dance, I hoped that if I stuck at painting the whole business would one day make sense to me.  Eventually, after a few years it did. One day the penny dropped. I’d been a choreographer with a strong inclination toward narrative. Now that same instinct to tell stories fired me up at the easel. The landscapes and still-life works I’d cut my teeth on became incorporated into a different kind of work entirely as I evolved into a painter preoccupied not so much by what the paintings were of, but with what they would actually mean.  The Martin Tinney Gallery in Cardiff began to show my work in mixed shows. As at the Kilvert, in time I graduated to solo exhibitions. I remain with Martin to this day. Earlier this year Lizzie Organ died. Peter wrote her obituary for the Guardian newspaper. The packed church at her funeral in Clyro was a testament to how well she was loved.

In dance terms we talk about ‘muscle memory’. This is the process by which a gruelling schedule of training and rehearsal become so much a part of the dancer’s body that the technique and the steps barely require conscious thought, freeing the mind to fully give itself up to the performance. Painting, I’ve found, is exactly like that. At this distance from my first career I can see now that I gave up one form of rehearsal only to adopt another. I simply relinquished the performance as the mode of expression to replace it with the exhibition. Some things in life really don’t change. I even have ‘Opening Nights’!

27 thoughts on “about: how it all happened

  1. Flattery and praise are they similar or do you find a rich store of applause in this well formed stylish group of intellectual friends and delightful scoop on most certainly beautifully designed web page? And here the end for me balking at writing a word to one who is so artistic and beyond the common folks??? NO? NO! a miscast person, that I am. Best wishes. atk

  2. WOW !!!
    This is a beautiful text. And the fact of it being your true story makes it even better.
    You are a Painter all right, but you are a writer too. And a mighty good one. I am sure you are a great dancer too.
    What you do is very much what Wagner had in mind when he talked of Total Art.
    Love
    María

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  4. Hey you. Given it’s birthday week (Happy Birthday!), I’ve left a little surprise for you over at my place. Well, I say “for you”… 😉

    • Hi there Sammy! What a surprise. This must my Little Shop of Horrors reunion night, because you and Lyn O’Hara have both left messages here at the Artlog. What were the chances of that?

      Big hugs!
      C xxxxx

  5. This is a lovely way for me to show my appreciation having just accidentally discovered your Annunciation at Llandaff Cathedral.
    A moment of great movement and colour which somehow stayed with me a long time after my visit.
    I am looking forward to making a little idle investigation of others of your paintings.
    Thank you,
    Julian

    • Julian, thank you so much for the lovely message. I deeply appreciate it. I hope you enjoy a leisurely stroll through the Artlog. There are other Annunciation paintings I’ve made that can be found here. Check out the ‘Topics’ box at the top right of any page. And please feel free to ask any questions. I always reply.

      Very best
      Clive

  6. I discovered you and your wonderful work through Zoe and her charming maquettes on RedBubble. Reading about your life has heartened me immensely. This is partly because I’m a late starter, having been an actress and occasionally director. A disabling condition means that I can only create my art on a computer. I recognise so well that ‘am I really an artist…?’ and yet, as for you, the positive comments I’ve been getting from professionals has been wonderful. I hope one day, like you, I can earn a living as I’m no longer looking for acting. You’re an inspiration although I didn’t make this life change until about 3 years ago in my early 50s!
    Sarah

    • Hello Sarah.

      Life can spring extraordinary surprises, as I have found on this journey from the stage to the art gallery. When I started I had no idea I would get this far. There was no career ambition to speak of, just a desire to be good. The fates have been kind. I hope they will be the same to you. Work hard. Never give up.

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