I was having supper with Peter at the kitchen table while watching a TV programme about twentieth century composers. But I was only minimally concentrating on the jobs in hand, because my mind was up in the studio, replaying the moment I’d painted a tattoo onto the neck of the Winter Knight, and I was fretting over what a catastrophic failure it had proved to be, wrecking everything achieved so far.
The tattoo had been there in some of the preparatory drawings, a few swift coils, spirals and arabesques indicating intention.


But in paint it had unspooled from beneath the neckline of his garment, a robust and attention-grabbing scarlet tangle, coils vicious with thorns. Standing back to survey my work, I’d been so appalled at the terrible failure of the tattoo, of the very idea of it, that I launched straight in with a damp rag, scrubbing the still-wet brushwork into a red mess, as though the painted thorns were tearing at the skin they clung to. When all that was left was a faint, bloody stain on the abraded yellow/green paint and the white gesso beneath it, I went down to make supper, shaken by my error of judgement. There was the distinct possibility that this painting was going to fail at the final hurdle.
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Karlheinz Stockhausen
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On the TV, the documentary was examining Stockhausen, his music on the soundtrack, the camera panning across the alien landscapes of his manuscripts. Something in the geometry of the sound caught my attention, and in the manuscript too, where ellipses and dots sprang from the pages. Something familiar there, something pleasing, nudging memory. A solution, perhaps, to my dilemma.
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I headed back to my easel. In the underdrawing made before I covered it with paint (I take care to photograph all the stages) the bramble coils had been indicated as disconnected arabesques.
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It wasn’t that I’d intended them to be disconnected, but the pencilled curves were shorthand for what I’d later render more completely in paint. However once the bramble had been added, my eye became unprofitably lost in its byways, and then trapped. The compositional balance of the entire painting was broken. And though I’d subsequently removed it, scrubbing the damned thing down to a shadow, the memory of it was rankling. The artists haunted by the ghost of a painted tattoo. Maybe that could be a title for a new painting.
On the TV, Stockhausen’s music and manuscript soothed. They untangled the knots of my unease, made me remember what I’d been distracted from, and offered me the shapes that would make the idea work. Good old Schoenberg!
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With the new, simplified tattoo in place, the eye could simply rest on the Winter Knight’s neck, and not become entangled in the coils and thorns of that misconceived and overwrought bramble. The ellipses would reflect energy back out into all corners of the composition, and everything would be as it should. I imagined them as the deflectors on a pinball machine, sending the steel balls ricocheting in all directions.
This morning I came to the computer and found an e-mail from Philippa Robbins. Last night, she reported, she and Dave had eaten out at La Cuina, the Catalan restaurant in Cardiff owned and run by our friend Montserrat Prat. When the restaurant opened, I designed the logo for it.
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Philippa e-mailed:
‘the winter knight.
While we were eating at la Cuina I noticed this and thought of the winter knight’s neck’

And then looked at images of la Cuina’s logo and saw this and thought of his ear.’

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My chum Berni left an Artlog comment, seeing in the ellipse motif another apt visual reference: knots in the grain of wood.
‘My first thoughts, feelings (as a cabinet maker’s daughter) are of the woodiness of him. He is the tree and the tree in him, knots, grain and bark. Wonderful.
Hugs. B xxx’
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Philippa finished off her e-mail with this:
‘the chocolate ganache desert was superb! So rich I couldn’t finish it but the combination of chocolate, crisp toast with olive oil and salt was gorgeous!
Love
PX’
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I think I need a trip to Cardiff and La Cuina!
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